Love, but not quite

I've finally met a man I want who doesn't want me...not the way I want to be wanted. I knew this day would come and I would have to examine the way I chose to lead my life and make some sacrifices but I am not sure if he is worth it.

He only rings me up for booty calls when either one of us is in town. In that short time we spend together I feel like the only woman on earth. The sex is great, but I live for post-coital conversations where he fills the gaping hole in my heart with sweet nothings and soft kisses. But when we are apart it is back to being strangers. This confuses me. I don't know if I am happy to play this game where I have no control of. But I can't stay away. It's been going on for over a year now.

Never thought I'd say this but I think I'm in love.